from a caterpillar to a butterfly

How does knocking off fear look like? Scary, Eerie & Disturbing, Trembling legs, sweaty palms, Palpitating heart and an over alert mind. The voice inside screaming,  Don’t do, Don’t go for it, Don’t even think it! And beneath all this, Lies tucked in safely, Growing in our reluctance, Creeping inch by inch, Taking control because of our lack of control, Is this feeling called FEAR. Imagine this, Like a to be wedded bride, stood I, Like a strong and powerful groom, stood fear, Shy was I, Arrogant was fear, How is this journey going to  be? Like the race between the rabbit and tortoise? Or like the story of the fox and the grapes? Who is to say? I know you are inquisitive to know, What happened to the bride and the groom? Did they embrace and live fearfully ever after? Did they fight and separate never to see, ever after? Or like the yesteryears Hindi movies, Is there a prince or a hero coming to rescue? So, how do you think knocking off my fears looked like? A hero saving t...

A chance mail, I embarked into a path, became a teacher and it has been one and half years of teaching. It is for a reason it is called the noblest profession. It has purified me, humbled me and fulfilled me like nothing else. As I begin the next chapter, looking back at this incredible journey, I am left with wonderment at how I began and what I have become today. How I began, with self-doubt, debating, questioning and second-guessing. I was not an expert at what I was teaching (Hindi). I was far from it. There was this feeling of being 'not enough'. But once I started teaching I realised, it is not about what you don't know. It is about what you know and how well you use what you have. With what I knew I could contribute so much to the tiny tots and they guided me into learning what I did not know. Such is life isn’t it, you cannot know everything. But start with what you have and the path will unfold. So many cherishable moments, so many moments of awesomeness and self-r...

Looking at that amazing set, You dream and fret, You sigh, scroll away in regret. Woman, what is holding you back? Seeing many women out there, Wearing their best and shining above the rest, You wonder, how I wish I too were there, Woman, what is holding you back? Maybe you had an illustrious start, Along the way, life played its part, Yet the yearning inside still burning bright, Woman, what is holding you back? For all the dreams you had, Some fulfilled, many unfulfilled, In the silent chambers regretfully you reminisce, Woman, what is holding you back? You are brought up to believe many things, And take up many roles at the cost of your things, But you have paused, realized yet hesitant to act, Woman, what is holding you back? Is it the society? Is it the family? Is it your loved one? Woman, what is holding you back? You know the power you hold, You are the nurturer of this world,  Yet you succumb to doubt and fear, Woman, what is holding you back? Why do you believe what the wo...

  “There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle”. A quote by Albert Einstein one of the greatest scientific minds known to humanity. Which one is yours? It was just another Monday. As the evening stretched by my excitement was soaring high. As I was cooking dinner, I kept peeking at my inbox. As I got the kids ready for night, I kept checking my mail. While I was talking to my loved ones, every notification would make me pause. And finally, it hit my inbox, the much-awaited mail from my mentor, reviewing my last week’s work and giving me new task for the week. Something that always add a fun and growth element into my life. This week the task was to watch a movie and write my experience. I had until Sunday to complete it. Movies to me are a source of entertainment. My escape from my reality into an idealistic world of happily every after. I was super excited to watch this one, as the title had a wor...

Sitting, listening in a class, Fidgety I get. A sense of restlessness, I cannot comprehend. And then I hear a whisper of words, I take a deep breath and try to focus. Playing with my children, I feel my hands twitching, To pick up the mobile, And browse Instagram. And then I hear a whisper of words, I take a deep breath and try to focus. Talking to a loved one over the phone, Listening yet not listening, I keep thinking, Of what’s next. And then I hear a whisper of words, I take a deep breath and try to focus. Don’t we all do this? Physically in a place, But mentally elsewhere? Body doing a thing, While the mind, Thinking an entirely different thing. It is here I hear a whisper of words, Of my Guru nudging me to be, To be present in the moment, To be living in the moment, To be experiencing the moment, To be aware of the moment. And I take a deep breath, Willing my mind back to my body, Wanting to be aware, Wanting to be fully there, To experience life, Moment after moment, to its full...

  I am a dry leaf. I will be tossed by the wind,  scorched by the sun,  drenched by the rain, but I will flow, for I am a dry leaf… which sings to the music of the world,  which dances to the tunes of nature, for I am a dry leaf... as light as a feather or  even lighter! I am a dry leaf… playing to the tunes of the creator, dancing to the beat of life,  flying at times, rolling at times, caught in the mischief of the wind! Ah!! I am a dry leaf… I have no tension,  no sorrows,  no stress,  no problems,  no challenges,  no depressions,  no worries,  no anxiety,  no questions, about tomorrow, about yesterday, about present, about past, about future, about people, about anything, about everything, about nothing, about myself, about life. I don’t think.. I don’t have to… I am taken care... Hugged by the air..  kissed by the dew drops…  caressed by mother earth… Oh! How much I am loved by all for, I am a dry leaf!...